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Where are you on your journey?

Posted on Jun 2nd, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 02, 2009:

I AM right here, right now, living. I AM at the end and at the beginning, right here, right now. I AM moving and still, right here, right now. So, I guess you can say, I'm always en route.
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Where in your life are you happiest?

Posted on Jun 3rd, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 03, 2009:

I carry happiness with me. I take it out and take a bite, even in the midst of sorrow or grief. I can't really divide my life into this or that, black and white, here and there . . . it is one big stew and multiflavored. Happiness gets blended in with all the other flavors. That's all.
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Are you playing enough in your life?

Posted on Jun 4th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 04, 2009:

I try to have a balanced life of work, play, meditation, etc., but lately it has been forcussed on more work than play. I would so love to go to the beach. Today, I think I'll ask my friend Gerry if we can use his beach house for a week just to get away, play and have some scheduled fun. Yeah, I think I'll do that.
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In what areas of your life do you want to learn more?

Posted on Jun 5th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 05, 2009:

Want to learn? I don't have to want to learn to see and learn the lessons. Each part of my life provides opportunity for learning. That is a given. I want for nothing. All my needs are met. It is a gift to have awareness to learn.
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What has happened in your life?

Posted on Jun 6th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 06, 2009:

Much with much more to come. You can read about it in about 20 more years. It's a multi volume thing. Still loving life though.
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What has not yet happened in life?

Posted on Jun 7th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 07, 2009:

I'm not waiting to see if anything happens, but rather looking to the new surprises that arise moment to moment. I live in a sea of possibilities.
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What places of the world are sacred to you?

Posted on Jun 8th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 08, 2009:

Everywhere and nowhere! I guess it is perspective, and as we think we make it so for ourselves. I used to think India was the most sacred place or country on Earth, but not anymore. As I have not ever been to India, I carry her in my heart. I carry my sacred land with me wherever I go! Oh, my little Zen garden is sacred 'cause my cat told me so. ;-D
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What new ideas are bubbling in you these days?

Posted on Jun 9th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 09, 2009:

Well, there are many things. The two that come to mind are my new endeavor of making jewelry and starting a home-spun company DIVA JOHN'S LUMINOUS CREATIONS, and the second is learning to paint with acrylics. There are the two new things that are creative and that continue to bubble up for me.

The jewelry thing is coming up quickly and I'm learning basic technique for making jewelry. This seems so natural to me and is quite comforting even as I'm going through a lot with my beloved being in jail. I've always wanted to paint and tried this past year, and now it looks like I'll do an exchange with another visual painting artist. I'll coach her on her flute playing (she plays in a band that I was asked to play in), and in return she'll guide me in my painting endeavor.
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What value is most important for you right now?

Posted on Jun 10th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 10, 2009:

Truth/love!
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What would you like to give?

Posted on Jun 11th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 11, 2009:

"When I give, I give of myself," says Walt Whitman in Song of Myself. I love to love and to give love. I love to give loving awareness. I love to give my quietness and peace. I love to give surprise gifts that are thoughtful. I love to give myself through good manners. I just love to give. I don't think we were intended to just take in ideas, things . . . stuff, but to be in the flow of giving and receiving. That would be stingy or greedy or living in a life without abundance. Abundant living says, there is plenty for everyone and I don't need to hold onto everything, I am in the flow of giving and receiving.

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What would you like to be more clear about?

Posted on Jun 13th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 13, 2009:

Truth, love, compassion, peace, the fullness of life.
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Somewhere Songs from youtube.com

Posted on Jun 13th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
Barbra Streisand - Somewhere

Clay Aiken - Somewhere Out There

John Barry Somewhere in time - Theme

Eva Cassidy - over the rainbow



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Where do you find meaning?

Posted on Jun 14th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 14, 2009:

I do not find meaning - I live into meaning or meaning finds me, is lived through me. I think I try to assign meaning to things, ideas, but sometimes I feel like that just may be a big illusion. I try to live the questions without any final answer or meaning. That seems to be the place where many people, including myself, get stuck in life.
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How do you share what you've learned?

Posted on Jun 15th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 15, 2009:

I just put it out there, speak it, and try to live it. Not sure if and how others might benefit from it. That is totally up to them.
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Where do you hold yourself back?

Posted on Jun 16th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 16, 2009:

When it comes to shining, I don't hold myself back. I love to sparkle. I have this little bubbly and sparkly heart, and eyes. My newest endeavor, jewelry making, is the epitome of my sparkliness!!! (see my photos)

Pink Floyd - Shine On You Crazy Diamond


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What belief would you like to give up?

Posted on Jun 17th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 17, 2009:

I do not have to believe. I only have to BE LIVE, in the present/NOW! Beliefs come and go, serving for a time and then poof . . . new beliefs. Entrenched belief sinks her fingernails into the dying man and dies with him! That's what I believe . . . for now!

Let go of beliefs and live spontaneously from your heart. Live in the certainty of the unknown.  I wrote in Ted answer to the Q&R a quote from Rilke:

"We are not to know why this and that masters us-
Real life makes no reply, only that it enraptures us-
Makes us familiar with it."

And here's a belief to think about:
"Familiarity breeds contempt."  I ask then, are we clinging and contemptuous surrounding our beliefs?

Here is an interesting piece on beliefs I found on google.
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What's your most vivid childhood memory?

Posted on Jun 21st, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 21, 2009:

Sounds crazy, but I remember the innocence and the feeling of being warmly protected, and the trust that I had in the universe or God. Mostly I felt loved. I still feel that but there were times as I grew order that I lost touch with that. I was a happy child amidst all the strife of my life and the world at large. I guess I still that happy child, not of this world but in this world.
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Gay Pride?! Your pride, my pride, OUR pride . . .

Posted on Jun 21st, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is the time of year when Gay Pride is celebrated all over the country and the world. My friends have been asking me what I'm doing for "Pride" this year. I always answer, "The same thing I do each day." I haven't told them what that is though. What they really want to know, I think, is if I'm doing some of the Gay Pride events. Don't ya think?

I'm really not doing "Pride" events. I'm doing John events just like I do daily. I used to go to the parade and the market and listen to the entertainment at the Pride event, but not so much anymore. I don't feel I have to do that to support it, to make a statement once a year. I make that statement in my life each day by "living out loud."

See, I didn't really grow up feeling that I inadequate because I am gay. I mean, I heard what I was told that contradicted what I felt, but I just couldn't believe it, because inside of me I was informed otherwise, that I was good, that I was loved. There was a peaceful knowing even at an early age that I was okay. I was what I call innocently proud, happy with who I was, with my "I AMness". And yes, I was criticized and told that being "gay" was not okay, was an "abomination against God," and that "it just ain't right," but what did I care? I knew better.

So, what does it mean to "live out loud"? To me it means living from my heart, feeling the support of the universe, and speaking my truth, without secrets, with nothing hidden. (People can't gossip about you if you have no secrets.) So, I put my life into the world, with all its sparkliness, with all my hearts love, with awareness and connection to whatever the moment brings, singing loudly and even making up the words if I don't know what the current song is. I AM who I am without excuses, because no excuses are needed. Life is its own validations and needs no excuses.

Sad that some cannot accept the I AMness of others, can't accept the diversity within this great unity. I feel that it's all important, these differences, and that each contributes to the whole, in some mystical and unknown way that we cannot fully know (because we are not the whole thing, but only parts). I'm proud to be a part of the whole thing. I work at being who I am, even as it shifts and evolved, to live out loud, to live fully, breathing my way to the end only to begin again.

So my pride is not just a "gay pride" but a pride of presence, one that wishes to celebrate all pride, Our Pride. I am proud to meet you, to be with you. I'm proud of your accomplishments, your sharing your part of life with me and my part of life. I am proud to sit at your feet and listen and learn. I'm proud of the things that you are proud of: your family, your children graduating, the milestones you are measured with in this life. I'm proud of your animals and the stories you tell me of them. I'm proud that you live out loud too! I'm proud to have no embarrassment about who I am. I am proud that you invite me, call me, to connect, to journey with you in this life. I am humble proud to be in this presence, of this presence, living through this presence.
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What do you do to show others you love them?

Posted on Jun 23rd, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 23, 2009:

I just act lovingly and perhaps they will see that, perhaps not. I show them my loving presence, which requires nothing, has no conditions. I meet them (like the others have said) with a smile on my face and in my heart. In this meeting, life meets life, love meets love, and the experience is a fullness of what is.
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What do you like most about your life right now?

Posted on Jun 25th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 25, 2009:

Ted said it best in his response for the Q&R for today. See http://tedhoward.gaia.com/blog/2009/6/what-do-you-like-most-about-your-life-right-now#comments 
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Are you good at accepting compliments?

Posted on Jun 27th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 27, 2009:

Yes, I'm not only good at accepting compliments, but I'm also good at giving them. Compliments are just recognition and expression of others peoples joy experience by something that I've done or some way that I've acted. What a joy to receive a compliment, a recognition. And what a joy to give a compliment, a recognition.
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Shiny Sparkly Life, Duality, Death and other random thoughts. . .

Posted on Jun 27th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
I am thinking this morning that duality and non-duality are but One. I'm amazed at life and equally amazed at death. The sparkliness in the eyes of one so alive can be seen even at the point of death.

A few years ago I had the opportunity to sit with a dear friend who had many complications from AIDS and who was approaching his death with great awareness. He had said to me, "Look into my eyes as I am dying. I'll carry that sparkle of life on with me, even after I'm no longer here with you." WOW, I thought - what awareness. He didn't seem to be stuck in staying around in a body vehicle that was destined to die. But I sensed he knew that his spirit, that which animated him in this life, that his spirit would have no ending. He seemed to understand that duality as the appearance (some call illusion) of his operating in this world.

So, I'm looking at my garden, thinking how lovely and lively it is, and then I stoop down to pick up the dead leaves, that were once alive, and that now mulch the ground. Isn't it a strange feeling to see this around us daily. Rilke said, "Life and death at core are entwined . . . ".

I have grieved many friends and family who have made their transition from their earthly bodies, back into the dimension of pure spirit and each time there was a sense of joy (look at the duality in this), knowing that a spark of their appearance in life here that I got to witness, that a spark of their life would still live on. I sense and feel that once something is giving life, that it is always with us, hence the stories and remembrances that we have of those who have made this transition. I miss my mother and often say how I wish she were still here, but her spirit is still here, moving in me, and in everything that is re-membered, everything that was touched by her. Everywhere I see sparkles of her spirit, and in me I feel that her sparkle is not separate or dead, but alive, just as if she were in the flesh.

So, it seems that what we call lost to death is just a rearrangement of the property of the universe, in which nothing is ever lost. See, I am a non-dualist living in a seemly dualistic world, BUT IT IS ALL ONE. A leaf falls from a tree and does the tree grieve. Even in death we are supported. The leaf now feeds the very tree that gave it life. Another aha moment was my realization of a self-contained universe in which NOTHING IS LOST.

I'm really missing my Jeff this morning, even while he sits in jail and awaits an unknown outcome. I am thinking that life is not the same without him in my physical presence, but I still feel the spark of his being, his aliveness, even while he is not near me. And I feel a constant movement, moving me within it toward more experience of this life, of WHAT IS.

So, do we really lay down our life or do we lay down our bodies used in this life. I think the latter. I consider that laying down my life as laying down a sparkly experience within this bigger thing that will continue eternally. I can know this now and respond to it according to my understanding and my ability (RESPONSE-ABILITY), and try not to fear death. Death does not so much concern me about giving up this body, but pain does. Seems that spirit really wants to be here, experiencing life, and would like to stay as long as possible. Can we ever know the reason for this? I have thought that this was what was meant by GOD  experiences GOD through us. And we are just a part of it, just as the trees, the rocks, the hurricaines, the stars, the planets, galaxies, rot, worms, birds . . .  To me, it is all GOD, universal spirit, moving in and around what we call this agency of myself, ME, or us.  So, in a sense there is no ultimate death of what is. The property just changes, the body changes and grows and moves into the next state. The next state is just another dual thing in our being, that will come and go, but the whole thing is without beginning and without end. So, I'll end here cause I'm not sure I said much anyway. Have a great day.
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What is your favorite sort of weather?

Posted on Jun 28th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 28, 2009:

I like thunderstorms and refer to them as sexy weather. I like the cooler times of the day and the year 'cause I don't like to get over-heated. I neither think of weather being good nor bad, it is just weather. weather can however inconvenience us. I don't think the rain drops get together and say, "Let's go rain over there and be bad, and wet those silly humans." Weather is weather is weather - it simply is, without quality of good or bad. I do prefer cool breezy days in the fall with the crispness of Winter on its way.
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Where do you feel most safe?

Posted on Jun 30th, 2009 by Satya-Seer : Present - See me? Satya-Seer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for June 30, 2009:

In my bed as wake up each morning with my hand on the sleeping and warm cat, who looks up each day, yawns, meows. I even feel safe knowing that this body will not escape death or even pain, that that is just a part of being in this temporal world. I feel safe knowing that that which animates me will not be lost despite the dying of this agency called Satya. I feel safe with my GAIA friends as we awaken together, taking new paths, wandering to new places together, exploring the realms of BIG MIND and the great consciousness that we are a part of.

But there is this paradox, that within the safest thing, fear is but a breath away and vice versa. Mostly I feel safe, loved and part of the big picture. I feel safe even if I miss one of my lines in this great play, this great leela.
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