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living out loud
November 2009 
Gay Pride?! Your pride, my pride, OUR pride . . .
Posted on Jun 21st, 2009
by 
Satya-Seer
Satya-Seer
This is the time of year when Gay Pride is celebrated all over the country and the world. My friends have been asking me what I'm doing for "Pride" this year. I always answer, "The same thing I do each day." I haven't told them what that is though. What they really want to know, I think, is if I'm doing some of the Gay Pride events. Don't ya think?
I'm really not doing "Pride" events. I'm doing John events just like I do daily. I used to go to the parade and the market and listen to the entertainment at the Pride event, but not so much anymore. I don't feel I have to do that to support it, to make a statement once a year. I make that statement in my life each day by "living out loud."
See, I didn't really grow up feeling that I inadequate because I am gay. I mean, I heard what I was told that contradicted what I felt, but I just couldn't believe it, because inside of me I was informed otherwise, that I was good, that I was loved. There was a peaceful knowing even at an early age that I was okay. I was what I call innocently proud, happy with who I was, with my "I AMness". And yes, I was criticized and told that being "gay" was not okay, was an "abomination against God," and that "it just ain't right," but what did I care? I knew better.
So, what does it mean to "live out loud"? To me it means living from my heart, feeling the support of the universe, and speaking my truth, without secrets, with nothing hidden. (People can't gossip about you if you have no secrets.) So, I put my life into the world, with all its sparkliness, with all my hearts love, with awareness and connection to whatever the moment brings, singing loudly and even making up the words if I don't know what the current song is. I AM who I am without excuses, because no excuses are needed. Life is its own validations and needs no excuses.
Sad that some cannot accept the I AMness of others, can't accept the diversity within this great unity. I feel that it's all important, these differences, and that each contributes to the whole, in some mystical and unknown way that we cannot fully know (because we are not the whole thing, but only parts). I'm proud to be a part of the whole thing. I work at being who I am, even as it shifts and evolved, to live out loud, to live fully, breathing my way to the end only to begin again.
So my pride is not just a "gay pride" but a pride of presence, one that wishes to celebrate all pride, Our Pride. I am proud to meet you, to be with you. I'm proud of your accomplishments, your sharing your part of life with me and my part of life. I am proud to sit at your feet and listen and learn. I'm proud of the things that you are proud of: your family, your children graduating, the milestones you are measured with in this life. I'm proud of your animals and the stories you tell me of them. I'm proud that you live out loud too! I'm proud to have no embarrassment about who I am. I am proud that you invite me, call me, to connect, to journey with you in this life. I am humble proud to be in this presence, of this presence, living through this presence.
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I like that…the pride of presence. I am glad you are who you are with no excuses and that you shift your pride to celebrate all our pride. Blessings!
You are who you are John, and as long there is Love, does not matter that we love a man or a woman… we are spirits at the end or at the beginning of the Journey… and if this is how your experienec looks like, means that it has to be like that… We are very judgemental, we, the human kind, if is out of the square that we are used to, it has to be against something, and we will invent that something just to keep the square perfect closed… You are Love John, and this is all that matters… and the fact that you have the courage to live as you feel and be authentic, makes me proud to be your friend… Hugs… and Happy Solstice Day!! For all your family :))) Now when I hug you, I hug all 3 of you, John, Jeff and LaLa :)
John, you epitomise Rumi's words,
Reason is powerless in the expression of Love.
Love alone is capable of revealing the truth of Love and being a Lover.
The way of our prophets is the way of Truth.
If you want to live, die in Love;
die in Love if you want to remain alive.
Rumi
Beautiful words. The kind that just make me go into a feeling of peaceful stillness. Thank you!
John - I am so proud to know you and to be counted among your friends.
Wow, thanks everyone. And Nicole - you know how much I love Rumi. I'm sure I will “die in love” and I AM alive!
I am most proud to share air with each of you, to being here now on this Earth, aware of this loving and alive breath.
Peace be with each of you! ;-D John
sits on john
i have been ever so busy of late
and not taking time for those I care about
(in the ways that i prefer anyway)
i like the observant state of action
it often looks like inaction, but for me it is not
I always love you John no matter how near or far I may seem to get.